~Sameeh~

So xmas is over,it was ok,i do not celebrate xmas in big,since im not christian but the modern world applies it´s fee on the society so tehre you go,plus half of my family are christian so having a little get together is always there at my granny´s place.I didn´t buy gifts per say but gifting my granny a turkey was my idea.She loved it and my uncle cooked it and it was yummy,everybody ate and there was plently left for later.Until today i make my breakfast with turkey breast.I took some pictures too though i still don´t have mine fixed or a new one.My aunts from the U.S are coming along with some of my cousins,it´s would be great to see them,they will be in town around the month of January,next year or in a few days.It would be great for my mom too that she will see her sisters again and my granny will have a full house LITERALLY!
Im kinda excited for 2009 (MMIX),knowing that it will be another beginning for me,for my life,hope it brings much happiness and understanding to all the people i know and who i don´t know.I wish myself the best of all just as much as i wish to everybody,may the world be full of peace.I wish myself a promising,successful and excellent year for me,for a change,for the better,im maturing up and i thank the time and my mom.Im seeing things in a different way and i feel blessed.

I won´t write much but i would like to address the human rights.I don´t believe there´s something called that way,Gaza just suffered another mean,brutal strike.My console goes to all the families,all the people of palestine.There´s no human rights because someone responsable for those shameful acts and should be condemned right away.

Truely....
Hamza

Well,well...where to begin....it´s been a hectic month and last week was kinda hell.Mom out of nothing,got an incident,i thought that she is having a stroke.Her ill right arm started to move uncontrolably and bother her,then her face started to twist and turn to her right side,i freaked out,called Malek,asked my uncle´s wife to take us to the hopsital,we got mom out and when i sat her next to me,she changed that pattern and obopted a more straight posture,we rushed and i had calls with my sister in the way and my brother too.I sent out a prayer and read Quran next to her ear...she looked tired all the way and unfocus.We took her to teh E.R and found out that she had some bothersome,her bad cholesterol was high,as well as the sugar in her blood.When she was cleared from the E.R,she was sent to a private room.She had oxygen and meds given.The nurses were awesome and always great.The food was great too,mom was fond of it! So now that we are back to my granma´s place,i try to do the same meals and variety.

She was hospitalized for 3 days and i stayed with her all the time,she was assigned phisotherapy like the one i used to do to her before we took her to the lazer-light therapy.New medicines,new therapy and new diet is being applied to her these days and well,checking products that are organic,low in sodium,low in sugar,low in cholesterol or as i perfer none of them at all to her! She needs to be taken care of and real care,i am making sure she is getting that with me.My granma and brother will help me from now on,just an extra small help.....
Fue un susto,pero bueno gracias a Dios todo bien,ahora tiene que haber una actitud nueva y solo pensar en lo mejor.I wanna thank the Santa Fe hospital for the great way they handled my mom.As for me nothing new,i been talking to some friends here,i went to the city and walked around all the new places,to my former job too.Im dying to watch a "Arrancame La Vida" or "The Bunny House" and "Body of Lies".Can´t wait to watch one of those soon.Decemeber is coming and remember the "folding(on my last post)!",too bad some areas of the country suffered from flods :S hope they can regain all what was lost.....

Umm checked Rosetta for french,it´s about $400 something the 3 levels,it´s smarter and cheaper to get all the 3 together.That´s all i guess,will write when i can!
 

I haven´t blog in a big fat while now,don´t know if i will write much,i been busy.This month is "El Mes De La Patria" and it was nice to see all the patriotism reflecting in almost everywhere.I am Panamanian,born here,although i lived here and i know this place since a long time but i can´t help but to feel like an alien.Im not saying im a 100% Jordanian,i would be a liar if i would say that.Im not Jordanian,will never be.I love Jordan a lot,for God´s sake,i grew up in that land and knew lots of people there,i lived a third of my life there and i will always love it.Im half of both worlds,i am Panamanian but i don´t feel that i belong here.Im a stranger in my own country who can believe that? I am Latin Arabian,i can´t say im really from any of those countries.I am a citizen of the world.....i will always know that wherever i live....either here or somewhere else...my heart is my country and home is where my lover is.....

 

I had my friend Celmy over my house last month,i cooked dinner,watched WALL-E and it was nice to see her again.I love her dearly,she is one of the few people i remained close after quitting jobs and in the course of the years.Ather than that,we were over my granma's only a week and we stayed here,there is a clinic with great therapy for my mom so we stayed.Everyday for 20 days,i have to go with mom and wait 'till she it´s her turn.It´s been good but i can´t wait 'till it´s over and we can go back home!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I miss my Food network,my DVD,my kitchen and house so much! I hope these days end fast.December is coming or "floding" as the word just flashed thru my head.I bought a t-shirt from Zara,i will see when can i get some time off and walk in the city.I miss being alone a bit.....

So nothing really interesting the last few days or weeks,lets´say,ather than spending the weekend over my granma´s but a friend that i met thru my twin came to visit me,Tatiana is a graphic desginer http://tatiana.jimdo.com She has some photography that i saw and i liked it.I asked her to bring her nice camera along for a little session with me.I had been thinking of the poses and draw them,had the ideas for the shoot,decoration,location.We did it behind my house and i wanted to be as real as possible.She had some ideas too which i liked and was bendable with her direction.We took a bunch of pictues and i really enjoyed being in front of her camera.We were in talk of doing some retouching and fix some pictures but i seemed like couldn´t wait and posted them on my flickr http://flickr.com/photos/bobbyocean
I now can start to watch movies on my DVD i brought from Jordan,just bought a connection because like my DVD has a foregin switch so the connection was to able it to function.As i have mentioned on my web as well to everybody that i love the Food Network,love love! So been watching it,and just looking thru my old People magazines and listening to old cd´s i had since 2005/06,lots of memories as well as my old songs from that time,feels so surreal!

That´s all for now folks.....Chao

So i arrived to Panama,it´s been about a week or so.The flight was hectic THREE PLANES.I came with mom,since last year i left Panama for a breif period of time and went to Jordan so i can take care of mom,She suffered an incident and so all the family had to deal wth it.We have been very patient and compassionate with her so she can have an excellent rehabilitation and come-back.
The last day in jordan was cool,got to hang out with my twin friends Adel (IMAM) and Mohanad (Qubros) ate outside,drove around,shopped for my flight.Went back home,prepared and packed,airport,say goodbye,plane,travel.
Im glad we got safe and sound but it´s not how the story end,lol i miss my siblings,they used to help me a lot with mom but anyway guess now i have to manage to do it by myself all the time.We are spending this weekend over my granny and it´s cool.I have fallen in love with cooking ever since my mom got sick and so i had always cook for her and i found more reason to cook now watching the Food Network and there is some Cuisine books and today over my granma i made Salad A Lá Niza and it was a success,they liked it.
Haven´t done much except getting the house tidey and take care of mom.Haven´t told much people im here because it will be unfair to let them know and they would want to go out but i can´t because i have someone to take care of.
Watching over mom is a pleasure and a duty,there is no place or someone i would rather be except here by her side! I came to be more mature and humble with mom´s situation and Inshallah i hope for the better always.

Im announcing that my website will be inactive,well often inactive because im busy.I will be blogging weekly at least,update the site whenever it´s possible.
Im glad to be back home!

I write you from Panama with love.....

Woke up at 10 am,showered,shaved,got dressed to wait Harout,had a visit from my uncle's wife.Then Harout came,we went to his place,meet up with Sarah ("Sharkas" Who wrote me a cool card,THANKS!) and her cousin from Lebanon and Karoun.Had lunch at BK,walked around Swiefiye for somethings Karoun had to buy for school,went to Albaraka Mall and hang out there for a while,then the girls left and me and Harout met with his gang at Caribou Coffee.Then half of them went to bring thier jackets but one of them stayed with us,walked to Wikalat St for a little which was crowded like hell.Met another friend Zaid and said goodbye to him.Decided to leave because the gang didn't come soon and it was freezing.Went to Harout's place,had some hot drink,got in the room and chatted and saw our Facebooks,took some farewell pictures together.Then his cousin Shant showed up,they wanted to go to a place called "Amigos" or something but i had to come back to the house,it's cold outside.

Tomorrow will be the last day of the Eid as well as my last day here in this town,i will have to visit some people and see them in the morning and hopefully just pack at noon,buy a few things,copy all my files,get my clothes ready.Get some time alone to mentally perpare myself,breathe deeply.

Now i wanna thank Harout for the great friend he has been with me,i haven't been attached to a lot of people since i suddenly appeared in Jordan last year as much as with him,Harout is a magnificant guy who i totally love and will miss dearly! I Wish him the best of all and i hope a day in life will bring us together....

"DR.QADRI!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
:)

Photo By: Ukhti27

Ramadan has finished and today is the first day of Eid El Fitr.Eid El Fitr (عيد الفطر ), often abbreviated to Eid, is a Muslim holiday that marks the end of Ramadan, the Islamic holy month of fasting. Eid is an Arabic word meaning "festivity", while Fitr means "to break the fast" and so the holiday symbolizes the breaking of the fasting period.Eid El Fitr is a three day celebration and is sometimes called the "Smaller Eid" (العيد الصغير ).

Funny that the Eid comes along close to the date when i go back home.So i been preparing myself,not mentally per say but rather of packing,buying and decidinig what i will take back with me.As if not true but i have been here for a year,i can say it's a rollercoaster ride,i don't wanna repeat.And what it is more surprising is that THAT ride is not about to end,i feel somewhat excited.Life is amazing and it's amazing to be alive! Things happen in life,people grow up and change.Each one of us has thier own destiny,thier own path.The worst thing of all is not to continue.I can relate that life is about insisting,resisting and just keep on kicking and screaming.

Cut off my hair,doing lotsa laundry,organizing stuff,listening to not old music but from 3-5 years ago when i used to live here.Will take my favourite DVD's,music,my books (Not a reader though),some clothes.I will leave behind my anger,my hate and regret.I will leave behind without looking back,i will leave with a new attitude...a new attitude towards people,life and love.

Had to see my friend Anas Afane and say goodbye,it was nice to see him lol the last time i saw him was like last year when i got here but anyway we drove down to Gloria Jean and had some hot drinks,we talked a bit,reminisce about the old times,it's just seems like yesterday we were at school.Ah,i wish him the best of all to him and to all my friends....

Eid Mubarak to y'all
Inshallah yen3ad 3alena wou 3alekom!
Warm greetings~

These last days were undigestable.I been sick,with stomach acid killing me but eh,im all right now...Oh and Ramadan tomorrow will have only 7 days left.

Wrote a new arabic poem,which i earlier today i made it into a Youtube video,wrote the translation over the Poem section.It's called "Law Inak Ad Nafsak" meaning "If You Are Brave Enough".It bascially about rejection,about a person who doesn't have the nerve to be face to face and say what they really feel or what they are intending to do.And being cool about thier reply,not taking it in a harsh way or personally! One ought to learn from the mistakes that were done in order to not fall into the same holes next time.

Rejection is not easy but the sooner you start dealing with it,distracting your mind and doing things like listening to new music,watch a funny movie or just as it's my case excorsied those feelings of despair and sadness,the better you will get.For me writing is my therapy.

Today after posting "Law Inak Ad Nafsak" came upon a band i like very much,called "Bowling For Soup",so there's this video from Yahoo music,they did a cover of Fergie's "London Bridge" which was hilarious....

Hancock was quick i think,i get the impression that scenes were cut out.The movie was short,as if not well-thought.Although it was bad-ass,had a big sense of humor and realistic.Taking a normal superhero who just lives among people with his own issues.It added some sort of connection,that Hancock doesn't transform or need to drink or get angry or even wear a costume to able him to become a hero,he is just a normal guy like eveybody else who has super strength.The cast were all suitable for thier parts.Each one of them did thier job in the story just fine.The story had twists and turns,it left you puzzled and excited.It was cool,a new adventure superhero,a good effort! 6/10!

Mummy 3 was a huge disappointment,i wasn't surprised at all since i never saw any of the previous "Mummy" movies,there is a talk about another 3 movies with the "Mummy"! Brendan Fraser is nowhere funny or serious in his acting,i just couldn't buy that he is now a father!

The new character of "Evy" was poor and not deep and distracting.Loved Jet Li and Michel Yeoh ather than that this movie is not that big of a thing.The VFX were great but that's all.You can't expect much from this,it's a cliche' now!

Yesterday the 19th,i was invited to have some supper.Went out and walked around,listening to my MP3.Tried to reach someone i newly met and liked,couldn't get together for whatever reason.Tried to contact athers but all were busy,went to the Albaraka Mall,was about to keep reading "The Zahir" but bought a ticket for "The Dark Knight",since i didn't watch it ever since it got out (Almost two months now) and i always wanted to see in the movies which should be an experience,wanted to get on DVD but it was never clear and cool.Waited in the lounge but found out that the movie was about to begin,so i couldn't read the book!

So i get in but went out to buy a drink and chocolate,sat down and watched the whole thing.
-Extraordinare,glorious,interesting,mind- blowing,adventureous,packed with adrenaline.It was great,awesome.Smart script,outstanding preformances,cool effects,perfect soundtrack,terrific action scenes and story!
It's one of the best done movies i saw for quite sometime.It shows that all the work in it was worth it all....now one of my favourite! 10/10 ALL THUMBS UP!
is my review,although i didn't like that they replaced Katie H. with Maggie G. for me it was a little bit distracting.There was some untrue facts that they squezzed into the script such as Harvey Dent evolution and transformation but all in all,loved all the movie!


Went out of the cinema at 12:14 so i guess it was 2 hour and a half long.The mall was partially closed,took a leak,walked down,took a cap and went home!
Did some alteration to my pictures with The Joker make up and posted them as my display on messenger and Facebook,visited "The Dark Knight" website and the "whysoserious.com" too,i totally fell in love with the soundtrack and want to get it!
Will be watching Hancock soon tonight.....under a lot of stress,Ramadan is almost halfway to end.Have to cut off my hair.It's been cold at night,lot of breeze.