~Sameeh~

I donated blood last month,i always wanted to do it but never had the chance to.I did it proudly to the King Hussien Cancer Center (To donate please check:http://khcc.jo/)
Seldom in my life i feel self-satisfactory and complete,i felt i helped someone,i saved someone.They have as well a volunteering program that i reviewed and asked for applications.I do not if i will stick around here in Jordan for a while or go back home.If i stay,i would like to work,save some cash and go for a vacation to Canada but still i have no say if i will stay..
So i finally watched The Reader,thought it was gripping,Kate Winslet acting is just incredible,each role she gets she outdo it over and over again,very verstaile kind of actress and one of my new favourites.Pineapple Express was kick-ass and funny! Didn't know James Franco could be this hilarious and Seth...Seth is just something else,i love him,officially one of my favourite actors now!

I got interested in writing a script for the Royal Jordanian Film Commssion,an english script about Amman's hotel bombing 2005,entitled "The First Year".The script is about how a person can deal with the death of someone beloved.I thought i could do it,i got many faith and encouregements from friends-from Jordan,Le Reunion Island,Canada.lol the thing is that not long enough i was astonished by the fact that im writing a script something like i never did before-i mean writing songs or poems,blogging is nothing compared to a movie script.Not only that,the deadline is this June's 15th,i only have 2 pages,an average script would 150 pages.Plus i need to register the material and copyright it,find a producer.I think i will excuse myself and maybe try next year for the  writer's lab? I don't have here much time,peace of mind or space to do this.But i still like the idea,who knows i can dedicate myself to writing movies!!

Got out with my friends,met with some students abroad who study here.I had the chance to reconnect with an old pal from Al Salam high school and im glad i found him (GOD BLESS FACEOOK).I meet him this week and well we spoke from everything since the past 4 years.An issential part of our meeting was the death of our dear friend Omar Al Omary.Rakan hasn't really done much about Omar's death,i actually was out of the country and we struck by the news,didn't have much contact with my classmates then,not only that,i was rushing to travel to Panama.4 years later we were meant to get together,and decided to visit Omar's mom that day,it was a pretty emotional day for all.I knew it was kinda hard but relieving.I was pleased by meeting Omar's mom and we all talked about him,the wonderful man he was and he will always be.I had to ask for a picture.After the meeting,we thanks his mom and excused ourselves.Me and Rakan parted ways and left.I made a photocopy of the picture and now i feel like he is around.

OMAR WHEREVER YOU ARE NOW,I WANNA SAY THAT I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH,I PRAY FOR YOUR SOUL,SENDING YOU GOOD THOUGHTS......YOU ARE PRECIOUS,YOU WILL ALWAYS BE!

Wanted to blog earlier this week but.......didn't feel like! I guess it was a rough weekend,im homesick in an official way! There were days i didn't wanna wake up,there were days i feel like doing nothing.....
But we can't just complain at the middle of the way,i had a friend that cried,we can't cry and leave it all behind,this is what life's is about,keeping going,undergo the bitter and the sweet.Once a English teacher said "No Sweat,No Sweet"! We can't just lay and throw it all,we have to go on,life won't wait for us,life won't help us,we have to help ourselves,upgrade ourselves to be better!

I made a new friend,Amer Hasan and im glad he is one of my friend,he is a personthat i felt good with and wanted to be transperet from the beginning.He came over my place after i saw him the first time.We met at Albaraka Mall and got to know each ather,he is fun.I made some burgers when he came to my place.
I been writing as well,i wrote a couple of new songs in Spanish,sometimes my soul speaks in Spanish,sometime it doesn't...."Como Quisiera Vivir" was posted on a note in my Facebook.It's a warm-hearted song which speaks about that person that we fall in love with,that we want them around,we want to fall in love all over again,as if we were reborn.It talks about what happens when they are away and what thier love represent and how it will always there!

I created the Mauricio Velez actor's fan club in Facebook,i have just a few people.I had the luck to look him up and found him there,send him a request but i don't know!

I bought some movies too,one of 'em was Egyptian "HEYA FAWDA" but Arabic movies are never good enough for DVD,so it's better if it's watched in the cinema.I watched Vicky Cristina not Aguilera,Barcelona and it was interesting,no doubt entertaining,new twist,new tastr,Rebbeca Hall is so hot! Revolutionary Road was total HARDCORE,the acting was simple and just believable,it was awesome to see Leonardo and Kate again together,it was all so real and beautiful! All the hard work is clearly shown throughout the movie and they did an amazing job!
Seven Pounds just saw it last night,it's been 3 nights since i play it and fall asleep at the middle so i had to rewatch the whole thing each time,the movie was gripping,shocking and outstanding! It was just BRAVO! It made me sad a little and it's message was obvious,we need to help ather people in need! Next THE READER,Kate Winslet is quickly becoming one of my favourite actresses and im interested in seeing movies done by her!

I drawed a portrait of Marinelli last March when i was in Panama,this took my just about 10 minutes with just the lights of the tv helping me.I just had got it downloaded,it will be in my Arte page,i often draw,im not a pro just a normal guy,i am just a normal guy so don't hate on me!

Hugs for everyone---

So had the chance to go out a few days back and visited my cosuins in Shmesani where i fromerly used to live.Went out ate SHAWERMA!! (gracias Nadia!) i was craving it since a long time,omg they taste so good! Walked in Jabal Hussien,checked the malls and last went to Mazzika store and bought lots of Cd's,now i own all of Ne-Yo's three albums,Dido's Safe Trip Home,Kelly's All I Wanted,Fall Out Boy's Folie A Deux,Marwan Khoury's "Original but not really" Ana Wel Lail.My cousin lend me some movies,Vicky Cristina Barcelona,Pink Panther 2,among ather titles,excused myself to leave and after that went home and on the way,bought Mall Cop,ZACK AND MIRI MAKE A PORNO,lol i always wanted to watch it,i
mean Seth Rogen and Kevin Smith together,that's something!
I watched it,liked it,lots of dirty jokes and outstanding performances by all the characters,but i question myself if Elizabeth Banks was suitable for the real,either way she did pretty good.Seth is the new new geeky chubby Jim Carey.Craig Robinson was awesome,applauds for him! I only felt that it was kinda distracting towards finishing,ended too soon and.....nevermind me! Still nothing could have beaten Smith's imagination and the effort of everybody.Smith took Apatow's team and did a amazing job! All in all....SMART!

Mall Cop,our favourite King of Queens Kevin James returns to the screen as Paul Blart,dedicted siingle dad with a job in the mall as a cop not a security guard which is a big diffrence as he states! Mall Cop had some funny moments but there was too much talking.It was Co-written by James.It was an ok work,i think his real wife appears in the beginning of the movie,no wonder since the set was in a real mall as well,the film-makers allowed her to shop with thier kids!
James is already a comedian and he is great at it,somehow the movie lacked something.Not his best nevertheless not his worst! He did what he could.....

Pink Panther 2....thought there were too many stars in the movie,Steve Martin is a funny man and he makes Clouseau but the movie is pointless,Emily Mortimer takes on a more on-screen role,Jean Reno which i always liked has less time screen,each of Alfred Molina,Andy Garcia and Yuki are unimportant,Aishwarya Rai is goregeous but her in the movie,isn't the same as Beyonce'? It was all sorted out,no mysterious events,there was 3 years apart from the first and they only came up with script? Im not gonna kill it off,just saying it was average,nothing special,you won't miss anything if you don't watch it!
Im planning to watch Vicky Cristina Barcelona soon.

Been listening to all the music i had,but im a natural drooler for Fall Out Boy,i only cacthed up on them since Dance,Dance,and theni bought Infinity On High,anything from before,i never listened to it or have it.Thier new album Maddness shared by two = Folie A Deux,is nicely done,good hooks,addictive tunes with wierd lyrics all over! Dido's Safe Trip Home is so calming and easy...feels so personal and cosy!

I been thinking as well to make a Facebook group about talented funny Colombian man Mauricio Velez,who got big with stand up comedies,commericals and telenovela "Nuevo Rico,Nuevo Pobre" as well as a part in "Divinas Tentaciones","El Cartel",had his major role in "Muñoz vale X 2" which i started to watch faithfully in Panama but sadly had to travel to Jordan sans finishing it.....so maybe i will give it a try----

I wanted to take this chance as well to say that life is a work in process,nobody ever tells you how to act and live your life.We do mistakes so we can learn,all those parenting books will just give you a minimal idea of what to await but they won't tell you how you should deal with your baby,untill the real thing happens,untill you have your feets in the mudd,you will see how it's like.We are always told not to sleep with athers,not to smoke,cheat and not to do this and that,but somehow we we do at the end,to know how it's like.....luckily we have a God who is generous to forgive our doings and we ask to be forgiven! Nobody ever tells us what to do,they only give you an idea and you have to throw yourself at it,hoping you are doing the best thing! Nobody really prepares you for the real stuff,no matter how many times you are told stuff,you are the one who is in that situation and you will figure it out on your own!....

(by the way i couldn't kill the Roccoon,the one i have in my head,yeah,i have to cutt my hair!)

Hugs~

It's not a week here in Amman and i already miss Panama like hell,i came by winter's end (I'm told!) And i can't stand it,my body have to get used to it,i guess....
I got no sense of time too.When it's night,i tend to be awake and when it's daytime,i sleep.I saw my family,my nephews,my cousins and uncle.Im doing the regular.Before i left Panama,I had the chance to go out with Tatiana,ate with her,saw her place,picked some gifts for my twin.And the day after i went out with my friend Celmy and her BF,went to Mi Pueblito,hang out there,took pictures,ate then to Coastway.Came home,then went out with my neigbours,watched Underworld III,it was plain but it was ok.Was glad i watched it with my nieghbour.Afterwards went home,slept,made breakfast,showered,dressed and was in the Tocumen airport,said bye bye and flew to Bogota,both some snacks,checked my email.Got into the plane,10:44 hours to Paris,Watched movies,nap,got out,Paris,Amman,the flight was a chaos,typical arabian fighting seats and talking loud....guess i was in the right plane lol,mom slept almost all the way,next to me sat a french DJ La Lune Rousse.Talked for a bit,he had a show in Aqaba,Talal Bay Hotel something...

I didn't leave the house much here,i have bunch of things to do.But got my hands on Samo Zain's new album "Lik Lawahdak" which sounds spectacular,the clip "3ayez Mini Eh" is already out (Which by the way,it's a imitation of Pepsi's propaganda with Justin Timberlake),it's incredible how this guy likes to dance,it's was allright but the effects had to be more clever and realistic!.

The album is great,all the songs are amazing,i have to say being a fan,i found similarity in the tunes with his last effort "Aref Eh".But all in all,it's a smart record.

Also got Saoud Abu Sultan 2008 CD and i love his voice,love what he did in the album,it has out-standing lyrics and music!.

Ather than that,not much new,i was about to meet a friend but apologized to her,thought it wasn't a good time and my twin wasn't here.He has exams.I fixed my room,unpacked,got everything set up,the tv and my dvd.Have to cook something tomorrow and maybe i go to my cousins house and go somewhere.
Oh and i updated my Poem Page here with a poem called "In Another World" only on the website because im posting some songs on my Facebook these last weeks.In Panama i drawed a Martinelli's portrait,i need to download it here as well.I can't wait to see my friends again!
Happy Bday Rose...
So untill then,folks----

I been in a difficult position these last two weeks unlike ever before,maybe the most confusing situation i ever been.I will start by saying that there will be always one who will make you feel as if you were the most smallest thing on earth,like if you are the most unsignificant thing in this universe but you can't let that bring you down,you have to deal with it and let go of it,It's not worth your time and energy....you can't let that torment you on the contrary,you have to be better than that and swear to yourself that you won't feel like nothing ever again in your life,because you are something,you are something and you are someone!

The good side is that there will be always a friend who doesn't say she wants you around,but she does say it in her eyes,she wants you to be with her a while,we all get lonely,we all need someone to talk to.That person that you knew little about,can be the friend for you,your coolest company,it's wonderful how we all have our bunch of obsessions,our tastes,our past,our stories,our secrets,like the one who doesn't want to tell you the truth and lies,and i don't blame nobody,because i wanna protect myself too but at a certain point,you have to open up and trust........
I don't hate it,i don't judge it but we all have the devil in the shoulder,we all have our alter egos,our double life and ....it's allright!
There will be always someone who loves you but says it with kisses and shows it,there is always someone doesn't know how to act,there will be always someone busy but longs to be close to you,there will be athers who are far away thinking about you and worrying.....
Life is precious and it's amazing to be alive,when you are about to lose,it's when you have a new life and you have to celebrate it!

Im traveling back to Jordan to drop off my mom and will be training a maid to take care of her,my mom 's state has been progressing for the better.Hopefully i will be back here in the next couple of months...
I spend with her the most beautiful days of my life and i found with her what i dreamed of! It's been a rollercoaster and it's about to end,im excited for my life,i wanna do something for me.....i wanna think of me,because im gonna live from the beginning!
What's good that i 've been hanging out with my nieghbour Rose,she is an amazing person,i been living almost years next to her and not only this month we bonded....it's a blessing to have her as a friend.We have been to rides and McDonald's and crappy movies,i wish i can see some more friends before i leave tomorrow.Im set to fly this 30th and im a little nervous,you know that rush you get before you take a plane....and the departure day apporaching.I pray everything will be in my lord's hands and we will be safe! Maybe the next time i blog,i will be in Jordan!

 

February...umm Wafa left.It seems like a lie that she even came,i got used to her and i will always miss her.Nothing extraordinary in Valentine´s day,for i feel that Valentine is not commercial and it can be any day as long as the persons are in love with each ather.But i hanged out with my nieghbour the day before the 13th,went to a soccer game from the company AJAX,it was cool,then went to have some dinner although it was like 2 in the morning---we head over one of the boy's place,beers,talking,music,people got drunk,laughters,people sleeping,it was only at 5 in the morning or so that we head back home,i was worried all along about mom but she slept like a baby that night so it was all cool.Staying at granma´s now until the next month where father is supposed to come.I doing some reading on religions lately and reading about Hinduism,i feel like it´s a lifestyle.Also been happy because of the new album of Cyrine Abdel Nour,i think it´s nice,i totally love "3youn 3asaleye" it was written and composed by Marwan Khoury.Cyrine has new egyptian movies too that i would like to see.The 4 days of Carnaval just passed,i been locked up,didn´t wanna go anywhere thought it would be crowdy and dangerous.I been enjoying La Cascara at night and think it´s hilarious.Maybe next year,maybe with someone i can trust and stay with.Im not a big soap opera fan but i found one sitcom in particular that im eager to watch which is "Muñoz Vale Por 2" he is a chauffer of somebody important and he is married,with the wives at once....
Had written some songs lately,one in arabic,the ather is in spanish with a dash of arab word,called "Hayati,Habibi"...
I will try to blog later on!

It´s been a busy month for me and my family.My aunties from Florida and Lousiana came to visit along with some of my cousins.I saw my aunties back in 2003 and not until this 2009,i had the chance to see them again.They all came for a few weeks to celebrate my mom´s birthday and my granpa´s golden wedding.My cousin Jonathan who now is interested in movies was great to talk with.We used to talk about movies for hours and i like movies a lot.I was invited to Taboga with my auntie and cousins.I enjoyed going away for a bit and see the sun.I took some pictures with my cousin Daly´s camera.I had the chance to go to the movies with Jonathan and watch Burn After Reading.It was a nice movie,sometimes distracting  but it was cleverly written,very funny and wierd.No doubt a black comedy.My cousin Ricardo was here too,we crashed with my brother in Malek´s gf farm.Ricky was the first to go but a day before he leaves which was my mom´s b´day,my sister arrived.We celebrated her 50th b´day and it was fantastic.She was in cloud nine.Nicky was there and then Noris came along.I was happy to see them.I went out with my friend Dianne who happens to fell in love with a Jewish guy and she actually flew yesterday night to Jerusalem to meet him again,they met befoe here in Panama.I wish her all the luck.I wento to her farewell party in Beirut and she bellydanced and she does it really good.I met here mom and some of her friends.She was nice to me,she is a sweet-heart!

I also got my hands on a french movie called Les Choristes and i adore french movies and also Ms Henderson Presents and im anxious to watch 'em!
I hanged out with my neighbours and we watched Yes Man,it was hilarious but i thought it was dull sometimes with pitty dialouge.Not Carrey´s best movie but it was ok.
I went yesterday to The Chorrera Fair but just got in and didn´t do much because i had a gathering with my friend Nancy so i went out with her and it´s been awesome.I haven´t blogged in all January but here it is.It´s been crazy and i have to catch up with things,i have tons of things to do.I think i am righ where i wanna be :)